During this period, I’m thinking a lot, about so many things. I was reading our “ love email/letters”, just because sometimes I like to feel you! Is self harm, I know, but you are an happy place, and I like to feel it back! Anyway... We were so deep! And I was so stupid sometimes... reading that letters remember me the good and the bad one of us, and face it is difficult, because I remember only the good things with you! I completely deleted all the bad! But there were important too... the meaning of this text is to ask you sorry, because after years I understand how I was heavy with you, I’m sorry! I feel that I need to say it! Maybe I never did it . I’m sorry for everything, any word, any panic moment, any uncertainty, I’m sorry.
You wanted me so strongly, you can feel it from your words! And I rejected you so strongly so many times... afterwards, when I gave up, I wanted you so much, like breathing, and I was so angry because what you were giving me it was never enough for me! But you were just giving me what I asked for for months! I have not had half misure! Or all or nothing! But I didn’t considered that I was not alone... 2 of us! I’m sorry.
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